In my morning reading I came across these words in, “The Book Of Awakening,” by Mark Nepo:
There is very little difference between burying and planting. For often, we need to put dead things to rest, so that new life can grow. And further, the thing put to rest – whether it be a loved one, a dream, or a false way of seeing – becomes the fertilizer for the life about to form. As the well-used thing joins with the earth, the old love fertilizes the new; the broken dream fertilizes the dream yet conceived; the painful way of being that strapped us to the world fertilizes the freer inner stance about to unfold.
Having just come inside from working early in my yard, trimming, watering and observing what needs to be done in the process of removing the weeds and making way for whatever I decide to grow in their places, this quote seemed more than appropriate. In the spring many things that have rested through the winter and seem dead, now begin their transformation. Without the “dying” there can be no “rebirth.”
How true this is in our lives. We need to recognize those things that have served their usefulness and bury them in the earth of regeneration so that what is to come next can evolve. Just as we do a spring housecleaning and clear away the items we no longer need so we can begin fresh with the new items that bring us renewed joy and satisfaction, so we might well find time to clean our mental/emotional house. Now is a good time to recognize how your life has changed, how things that used to be important do not seem so important today. Instead, your mind, free of the used up energy of the past, is re-energized with new creative ideas, dreams and possibilities.
As we continue our journey through life, many things are let go in order to freely move forward. Sometimes we find new friends taking the place of others to whom we may no longer feel connected. Of course, we will always have those special persons in our lives. We are always connected to them no matter what other changes we may go through and no matter how separated we may be geographically. Sometimes, however, we may fail to recognize what isn’t working for us any longer. Until we come to a place of recognizing and letting go of those “dead” things we cannot fully be awakened to the new life.
I would first suggest examining those things we have an inordinate sense of “needing.” When we are desperate about clinging or holding on to something that seems to want to leave us, it may be time to bury it and plant a new dream, a new goal, a new social experience—whatever is moving in your creative consciousness. Innately, I believe, we know what we need to do to change our lives. Often, it is simply a matter of giving ourselves permission to change.
In a conversation I had with my neighbor this morning I mentioned trying to determine what I want to do with my flower garden. It seems to me that the previous owner had what my neighbor called, “an eclectic garden plan.” Whatever she liked went into the ground. I cannot make sense of it, nor determine if it was “planned” or freely evolved on its own. In any case, as pretty as it is, I have to bury some of what is there so I can develop the garden that satisfies my plan, my dream. I think it is going to be fun. Even though I feel like I am “killing” the plants that I need to let go of, somehow I think they are willing to become the fertilizer for the birth of new beauty. We will see!